“she’s so smart,” i said. my college professor was a 30-something african american (black) woman who was more interesting than the business law class that she taught. sure, she was beautiful, well-spoken and highly educated, but the most interesting thing about my college professor was her confidence. she just looked like she was living what she loved. i wanna be like that one day, i thought to myself every class. that was my dream: educate others. be in control of my time. and represent for women of color. i didn't know the specifics of the dream at the time, but i believed it would all be clear eventually.
life after college was tough. unemployment knocked at the door more than i welcomed it and my confidence (which was attached to my possessions) was in danger. although i was blessed to have accomplished some awesome goals in my 20s (i.e. graduated from multiple colleges, lived overseas, self-published books), there was still something missing. i still felt disconnected from my dream. i still sought after what i felt was right for me like “safe” government jobs and K-12 teaching gigs, but i never gave my blog and writing skills an honest chance. i never saw it as an avenue to educate others, be in control of my time and represent for women of color. i never thought it was possible for this introverted black chick from compton, california to be a person of influence and her own boss.
well, that mindset and false reality has changed. i’m not sure if it was turning 30 this year or following business and blog greats like mattie, maya elious, myleik teele, pat flynn and so on. whatever flicked this entrepreneurial light of mine and recharged my esteem, i just want you to know that i'm grateful for you. this “aha moment” is here to stay! (thank you Jesus!)
i’m tired of living below average emotionally because of my fear to put in the above average work. i’m tired of feeling inadequate around my younger brother and cousins because i feel i should have more hope to offer them. i’m tired of going to fast-food restaurants and ordering from the value menu because i don’t want overdraft fees on my bank statement. LOL. i mean, i’m doing okay financially, but i’m not where i wanna be or where i’m post to be.
moving forward, i will no longer hide behind my comfortable talents of classroom teaching and administrative assisting for sole income. i will push myself to move past my talents and focus on my gifts. people often come to me for help with writing, whether it’s an email, a self-published book or a 4-page letter. i’m THAT girl! and that’s okay, you know why? because i found my target audience. now, i have to narrow my focus and help others hone in on their writing skills. after a million years of blogging, i’ve finally found my niche. i know there are strategies i need to incorporate branding wise (i.e. email lists, web design update, quality content, etc.) but it’s coming. for real this time. i'm finally ready to IMPLEMENT. in a nutshell, i'm ready to walk in purpose and marry the dream!
until the next blog post,